"What do I do when I am stretched so thin?"

Hey y'all! So here I am again. It's another Saturday and another day of my heart breaking! I can't help but feel the words from that song as quoted above! I really don't know why but all I want to do is keep crying and my heart is bleeding so badly right now and it just feels like deep down inside my soul is dying but yet no one is there to see, or better said no one cares to see! I wish I knew what to do to make this pain deep inside go away but what do you do when all you have known is nothing but pain and hurt and violence and anger. I hate this. I hate me, I hate my life, I hate being like this!!!!!!!! I feel so weak and I just wish I knew how to make this stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just feel so worthless and insignificant, and I guess it's just because I am. All I keep asking myself is how did things get to be like this? Where did I go wrong? Why? But I guess these are all questions that'll never have answers. Too bad no one can see through this fascade known as me. You think you can see and that you know but all you know and see is what I want you to see. For you don't know me, for I don't even know me. All you see is what you want to be because I am the child forgotten and adandoned unto this black sea!!!!!!!!!!
But I gotta go.......